mannersandmars

wife.mother..lover…friend.daughter..sister…crafter.reader..blogger…

The Child In My Life

The Child In My Life

I am heavy hearted today. With so many people in conflict and turmoil both close to me and in the world… and the weather doesn’t help… I am all for having fun on the 4-Wheeler and sled riding, but I am truly ready for the warm up and the beauty of the flowers to be revealed.

Recently there have been conflicting events going on around us and it makes me evaluate our surroundings as well as the people in our midst. Through this analyzing I’ve came up with the following:

No matter what anyone thinks of me I’m proud of who I’m becoming as a mother, wife, daughter and friend.

I’m blessed to be the SAHM that I am and to have a husband that will stick by me no matter what (even when we aren’t in high spirits with each other, at the time).

I am going to let the judgments both silent and vocal go over my head… What I (and my husband) choose to do is what we have to live with and we are truly happy with our lives the way it is.

And finally I am here to protect and raise our son in the best most positive way I know how, so that’s what I’m trying to do.

So… With that being said my husband and I have decided to cut all toxic people out of our lives for good… There is no going back and saying sorry it will change and then turning around in a few months and doing all the “same old” steps over again.

I’m not about to let my son grow up around unstable people that could go unhinged at any point. We have no dilemmas with our decision and look forward to the events we have planned for our son in the coming year.

I truly hope that everyone is having a good year thus far – ‘2013’ is really going to be “the year.” It can be “your year” for whatever you would like to happen -make it happen.

Thanks for listening to my thoughts and life concerns. This blog really helps me clear my head and there is nothing really more to it, I wish I were more entertaining at times, but this is just me… wife.mother..lover…friend.daughter..sister…crafter.reader..blogger…and we can add couponer for fun too !

Peace

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Homemade

Homemade

My first attempt at making a smoothie WITHOUT a recipe, (& posting a picture blog). Haha…
A serving of each. 1 cup strawberries, ¾ cup mango, and 1 cup soymilk. I added ¼ cup water to make it a little thinner and to help my blender along. I really am thinking about investing in a better blender. Any suggestions?

I liked the outcome, maybe add one or two more fruits next time. Just wanted something that was full of fiber and wasn’t going to un-do my good day so far. Hope everyone enjoys !

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Confessions of a Crazy Mother

So it’s been a very long time since I have wrote a blog. I have wanted to several times. There were a few things burning in me that I wasn’t sure if I wanted to own up to.

First of all. I have been struggling on with my job as a mother. Most of you mother’s out there know it’s pretty serious job, one to not be taken too lightly.

I started school to become an MTE in March of 2012. It was to last for 1 year, as you see that’s coming up soon. However, in March of 2013 I will not be taking me final. My husband and I decided that my time spent stressing over school work and time management and everything else that needed to be done was taking away from our son Emmett… I was the ‘stay-at-home’ mom who was missing everything. It really sucks being right there and not seeing it. I wish someone would of warned me about this… Maybe I should of did more research before jumping in first hand.

As well, the not so recent issue of the fact that I am Fat. Yes I said it Fat, it’s no secret it’s a suit that I wear everyday, one that I wish I could just take off… Unfortunately life doesn’t work that way. Once upon a time I was the 150 pound, toned and muscled athlete but that was ‘back-in-the-day.’ Now not so much.

I could sit here and list you the reasons that I got this way. Like when I was growing up I had to finish my plate, and when I went to beauty school there were no sports to keep me active so with not changing my eating habits (which clearly weren’t the best, cause I didn’t do anything different). And so on and so one…

The truth is I am pretty sure I loved food more than myself. Almost like an addiction. When the word addiction comes to mind also comes habit, compulsion, dependence, need, craving all these things are my relationship with food… Not a very healthy one at that. I am truly not that comfortable stating this aloud let alone announcing it to the world. (I am banking on the fact that my blog is new and no one really reads it lol).

Because of my food problem I am very unhealthy and need to change. In the past, I have been addicted to exercise as well… But even with all the exercising I did in the months of November, December, and January the weight didn’t come off with the work. Because I guess you can’t exercise off bad nutrition.

So I guess you can say I’m writing this blog to come clean. This is my ‘public’ commitment to eat better, healthier, and cleaner. My body is no longer a garbage dump for junk. And I am beginning to love and be more addicted to exercise again everyday. It does help that I have a sitter lined up for all the Zumba classes that I could possibly go to this month. I am in the process of getting a set workout schedule for the days that there is no Zumba, and also making a food menu… So there is no last minute I don’t know what to cook… so we will order pizza.

I originally didn’t get a blog to vent or advertise my problems, but I hope you can learn from my mistakes. I guess for the time being my blog is what it is. For now I guess it’s my journey so at the moment it’s my food and weight journey. Which you all are welcome to take part in… The more the merrier. 

~~Amanda~~

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